I spent most of my day in bed with an unholy hangover only to discover I'm getting my first wisdom tooth -- I thought this day would never come. My eyebrows are a disgrace and my breath smells dreadful but the worst thing is my dried out skin. Eczema is a bitch. It's a royal pain in the ass! If it wasn't bad enough to experience stress you then develop rashes because of the stress which inhibit your sleep and bloody everything you touch (like the white t-shirt my boyfriend gave me yesterday...). I'm sick and tired of it but as my first dermatologists appointment draws closer I'm beginning to realise that everything I tried to do to fix it slowly fell to the waist-side as I struggled with pain management.
This goes for depression too. You have to keep reminding yourself how to behave all of the time. I'm laying here re-evaluating my life and it's no surprise that I'm still so low! I eat primarily junk food when I'm on the go or having a duvet day (90% of the time) and my sleeping habits are chaotic. My dog exercises about five times more than I do and I stopped taking my medication several months ago... To top it all off I drink regularly which dehydrates my skin as well as being a depressant.
So where did my good intentions go? When does not dying cease to be enough work? I go to my talky-sessions when I can but it's not enough to rely on an hour a week kinda guy to fix me up right... I need to take my health seriously and tonight I'm starting with food. No, I'm not dieting. I'm eating healthy. The start of the academic year is the ideal time to start a routine with yourself to eat right and maybe even to exercise more (I tend to binge exercise... Not useful!). I think I'm gonna let myself off with 7up and baby crisps when I want treats...
How to change this? Be realistic! Setting goals is an important factor in recovery but not if you're setting yourself unachievable tasks and wallowing in self pity when you inevitably fail. I'm starting small by cutting out sweets, crisps and take out a few days before I'm back to work but am allowing myself fizzy drinks still (as they give me the sugar I crave as I re-adjust my appetite and eating schedule). Go to 30dayfitnesschallenges.com and pick out a fitness challenge for yourself. Start doing sit ups or something in ad breaks while you watch TV... Every little helps! It will certainly ease you into a healthier lifestyle and that's what counts! Personally, I find morning work-outs better for weight-loss and evening better for mood-lifting and aiding sleep.
The truth is no one else can make you better. It comes from within and other people can only support you outside while you search in your space for the peace you need. Depression is effected by so many physical variables too though so we should support one another in keeping our bodies tip-top so that we can bring our minds back to the happiness.
Join me in the fight against depression,
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